Posted on January 7, 2009 by Raindreamer
He seemed nice, well educated and polite. We had nice chat over the net. Then he told he had nothing in the home to eat and silly me joked about needing to order the pizza. He wanted to meet me over lunch or dinner next day. I am no follower of the rule book - yet [...]
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Posted on January 5, 2009 by Raindreamer
Most of the second half of 2008 my life evolve around work (a lot of new and stressful things), my mother (who I’ve been worried about) and my god daughter, who will soon be half year old. I have to admit I am besotted. She is a little darling.
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Posted on January 2, 2009 by Raindreamer
Somebody asked me this question in this blog for a while ago.
I don’t think it is a question of need. I can do without a mate. I might feel more satisfied with a family, but I am rather happy with my life as it is. In fact relationships (with men) usually make me feel frustrated and [...]
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Posted on August 22, 2008 by Raindreamer
It is revealing to see old photos. After decades one can watch them almost as an outsider, while it is otherwise impossible to dive in the past as it was. You only know it through your emotional memories. The photos are revealing a frozen past.
Filed under: Family, Inspiration, Personal history, appearance, feelings, me, women | Tagged: alienation, Astrid Lindgren, childhood, Kierkegaard, mousy, ordinary, past, photographs, photos, postdicting, postdiction, pretty, self image, teenage, ugly duckling | 8 Comments »
Posted on August 19, 2008 by Raindreamer
My problem with men has been a special kind of shyness or social fear. I am afraid of sexual chemistry and behind it are my bad experiences. I know it makes me difficult to interpret, because I am not otherwise excessively shy. It often happens that men I am not interested in find me easier [...]
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Posted on August 14, 2008 by Raindreamer
It may sound funny, but I truly think that I should dream less and live in reality little more. The idea came to me, when I was thinking of a man I know and like. Always before I’ve let my dreams run wild: designing the family and kids, thinking up the weddings. And sometimes I [...]
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Posted on August 5, 2008 by Raindreamer
I am unofficially a God mother (- it will be official only after the babtism of course). The baby girl was born couple of weeks ago and after it we had a slight worry with her blood sugar levels, but now everything is fine. I am happy for them and part of me wants to [...]
Filed under: Children, Family, Thoughts, feelings, friends, life, men, relationships, women | Tagged: babies, fertility, god children, god moether | 3 Comments »